Sunday morning as I was getting ready for church, the phone rang. It was one of the women from the online support group I help moderate for those struggling with same-sex attraction.
"Sue, can you talk?"
"I have two minutes."
"OK, then in two minutes tell me again why homosexuality is wrong? I'm at an AA [Alcoholics Anonymous] retreat and there are so many women here I could really connect with and they keep turning out to be gay. And the leader is wonderful, but she's a former nun who is just so happy and content with her lesbian partner. I can't remember why I'm supposed to be fighting against what I want."
"Oh. Well, okay. . . [Lord, help! Give me Your wisdom here!] Homosexuality is wrong because it's not God's plan. Because He created man and woman to be complementary to each other. Because two women can have a wonderful friendship but were never meant to meet each other's needs in that way. Because lesbianism is about trying to fill your heart by drawing from another woman's heart, but that one's as needy and empty as yours. Because two people of the same sex cannot possibly reflect the 'unity with diversity' of the mystery of the union of Christ and the Church, where two very different, very other beings are somehow one. Because it's two of the same, not two who are different, coming together as one. Because homosexuality is idolatrous—remember, it puts the other person or what they give you or the relationship on a pedestal where only God should be. Because when you give yourself to what God has called sin, it costs you the intimacy with Jesus that your soul craves."
"Right. Right. . . . But Sue, it doesn't feel like it. The others here seem so happy and content, and I'm miserable."
"I'm so sorry, Em. Fighting our flesh will absolutely make us miserable. You're doing the right thing. Don't give in! Ask Jesus for help! Press hard into Him!"
As I turned on the water for the shower, a scripture sprang into my head, full and insistent. I called her back.
"Got a scripture verse for you, Em. I think God wants you to grab onto this for all it's worth. 'There is a way that seems right to a man, but the end thereof is death.' Proverbs 14:12. Got it?"
I am so proud of my friend for reaching out and asking to be reminded of what she knows is true but has forgotten why. What a great example of why we need community, why we need friends who also walk with Jesus, why God doesn't want us to be "Lone Ranger Christians." Lord, help me continue to surround myself with people who will speak truth to me, especially when I am tempted to forget it!
This blog post was first published on Sept. 9th, 2008.