There is an unspeakable ache in my heart today, can you feel it too? Among the angst, frustration and bitterness, what I feel most is really disappointment. I am disappointed that that after years of striving to be a beacon of democracy, people can be left to bleed out in the streets, with no trial, no due process, and no convictions. I am disappointed that a band of heartless cowards decided to target police officers in my own city of Dallas, Texas, leaving 5 dead and several others wounded. I am disappointed that the actions of these few will now be extrapolated and applied to the entire Black Lives Matter movement, rendering any outcry against the deaths of innocent men now useless as the inhumanity of Blacks will now be confirmed by those who already dared to believe it. I am disappointed that one cannot simultaneously cry out that black lives matter and blue lives matter without somehow devaluing the other, as the media seems to paint the two sides as mutually exclusive. But most of all I am disappointed in the lack of clear representation of unity in the face of adversity, mutual love, empathy and a biblical response to racial tension among the church.