I recently received an envelope in the mail with no return address and no personal note, just copies of three articles about men who used to be part of Exodus International, who used to identify themselves as "ex-gay," and now repudiate that part of their histories. It is consistent with emails and blog comments I have received pointing this out, and asking if that doesn't negate my position that homosexuality is changeable.
No. The fact that some people, denouncing something they used to support, now represent themselves as proud gays and lesbians, doesn't change anything. Just as people who lived in sobriety from alcohol and drugs for years have been known to get sucked back into their addictions, it isn't surprising that some would get weary of the struggle against their temptations and stop fighting.
Some people gave up earlier than others, hoping and expecting that if they just kept living "the straight life," their feelings would catch up with their resolutions. They kept waiting for homosexual desires and temptations to disappear, and they didn't. So they decided that they were done with trying to pretend to be something they weren't. I'm good with not pretending; I'm a huge believer in authenticity and transparency.
But if someone continues to experience same-sex attraction even if they don't act on it, does it mean they're gay, as the culture insists?
What the culture says—if you ever have same-sex feelings, it means you're gay—doesn't matter compared to what God says.
God calls us to make choices every day that contradict and violate our feelings and temptations, but which we choose because they are the right thing to do. From the basics of the Ten Commandments to the ultimate example of Christ in the Garden of Gethsemane, He calls us to choose obedience and behavior that honors Him and other people despite our feelings. What if we don't feel like telling the truth? Don't lie anyway. What if we don't feel like not killing the person who really ticks us off? Don't murder anyway. What if we don't feel like remaining faithful to our spouse? Don't commit adultery anyway.
So what if someone doesn't feel like stewarding their sexuality in purity and self-control? Regardless of the nature of the temptation, whether same-sex or opposite-sex, God calls us to possess our own body in holiness and honor (1 Thess. 4:4).
Sadly, some men who had come out of homosexuality have left their wives and children to return to living as gay men. This isn't really much different from men who leave their wives and children for another woman. Succumbing to temptation, regardless of who tempts us, is still sin. Heartbreaking, home-breaking sin.
We're hearing people saying, "I'm not ex-gay anymore because trying to be ex-gay doesn't work. 'Pray away the gay' (a rather offensive term used by scoffers) doesn't work. Trying hard to be straight doesn't work. 'Claiming my healing' doesn't work. I'm done."
And they're right.
What doesn't work:
Name-it-and-claim-it theology, the religious version of "wishing will make it so." Trying to speak reality into existence, as in "I am no longer gay because I'm a Christian," doesn't work because we don't create reality through our words. Only the Creator God can do that.
Casting out the demon of homosexuality. While there is always a demonic component to idolatry and unrepentant sin, homosexuality is not caused by a demon, any more than bigotry, selfishness or gossip are.
Trying harder, praying harder, reading the Bible, begging God to make the gay feelings to go away. These human efforts are the religious equivalent of mowing the grass to get rid of dandelions. (For a completely different approach—grace—check out True-Faced.)
What does work:
Laying aside one's sexuality as the measure of identity. "Who I really am" according to our flesh is always going to be at odds with "who God says I am" according to His word. Seeking a deeper relationship with our heavenly Father and the Lord Jesus Christ through the spiritual disciplines moves us toward reframing our faulty identity, no matter who we are or what we struggle with. We need to choose to find our identity in what God says about us—most importantly, receiving and owning the truth that He says, "You are My beloved child in whom I am well pleased."
Looking at the contributing factors that shaped the same-sex "hole" in one's heart (and the lies connected to them) to process them in light of God's love and sovereignty, and then forgive the people who inflicted the wounds.
Choosing to learn to live with a tension: our flesh wants things that are dishonoring to God, dysfunctional and dangerous, but God calls us to do the right thing anyway. Regardless of our desires and feelings. Right from the beginning, He told Cain, "[I]f you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at the door. It desires to dominate you, but you must subdue it" (Gen 4:7). God didn't say to Cain, "I know, you're angry because I didn't accept your offering. That's who you are, an angry soul. Go and let your anger explode!" In the New Testament, we read, "The thief must no longer steal. Instead, he must do honest work with his own hands, so that he has something to share with anyone in need" (Eph. 4:28). God didn't say to the thief, "I know, you feel compelled to take what doesn't belong to you. That's who you are, a stealing soul. Go and act on your desires to steal!"
Now we have people saying, "I am attracted to the same sex. Since everyone says I am defined by my feelings, I now realize that's just who I am." And God does not say to them, "I know, you are gay/lesbian/transgendered/bi-sexual. That's who you are, so go act on it!" God calls everyone to the same standard: sexual holiness and integrity, which means keeping all sex within the bounds of marriage between one man and one woman.
Adjusting one's expectations. Accepting the truth that one's attractions and desires may always be warped to some degree; they may always remain an area of weakness that can drive the disciple to a deeper level of dependence on God, which is essential for growing in relationship with Him. That may mean learning to live with a "thorn in the flesh" (2 Cor. 12:7-10) instead of insisting that the only culturally acceptable change is a 180-degree shift in attractions from homosexual to heterosexual.
There is no "easy button." Submitting to the process of sanctification means crucifying the flesh, and that's hard. For any Christ-follower. And that's where lasting change happens—as we are made into the image of Christ (Gal. 4:19), as we are transformed by the renewing of our minds (Rom. 12:2). And that might, or might not, extend to our feelings. Regardless of who we are.