Do You Listen?

August — my least favorite month. It’s hot, the kids go back to school and we celebrate Anna’s birthday. I know I should feel happy about my daughter’s birthday, but I seldom do. You see, Anna will most likely lose her hearing by her thirteenth birthday. That’s what the doctors have told us. Diagnosed at two years old with a condition known as Large Vestibular Aqueduct Syndrome, Anna has never had the gift of hearing things clearly.

Yet, she listens better than anyone I know.

I will never forget the first time we put hearing aids on her. As I walked out of the hospital with her in hand, the pink hearing aids placed above both ears did not prevent her from skipping. As soon as we exited the hospital, she stopped. For the first time she heard unfamiliar sounds. The noise of the cars passing overwhelmed her. The sound of an airplane brought her confusion. She kept looking around trying to figure out where all the commotion came from. The dog barking across the street only magnified her fears. “I’m scared Mommy,” she cried.
I scooped her up and whispered Joshua 1:9 to her. “Remember,” I said, “courage means to do something even though it scares us. We need to act brave. God has not left you.”
“He’s here in the hospital?” she asked.
“Yes, He loves hospitals,” I responded.
“For all the sick people, right?”
“Right.” I smiled.

I often wonder how Joshua must have felt, looking out ready to conquer the promise land? He had heard God’s instructions, but instead of letting his fears overcome him, he remembered the words “Only strong and courageous.” He listened to God’s message. He understood God’s omnipresence and power. And he trusted His instructions.

Anna’s birthday reminds me of the future ahead of us. I dread her birthdays. Yet, I do my best to make them special. Every year I wonder about her hearing loss. And every year I face the same fear.

A couple of years ago, Anna noticed my struggle. She waited until bedtime to ask me about it. I told her even though God had given her seven wonderful years, I felt anxious she would lose more hearing.
“Oh,” she said. “You don’t have to worry about that. I’ve prayed and I know that no matter what happens God is right here with me.”
“Oh really,” I responded.
“Plus if I do lose all my hearing it won’t matter,” she said.
“Why is that?”I asked.
“Well, when I get to heaven, Jesus is going to touch my ears and make them all better,” she replied.
“I’m not scared,” she added. “And neither should you. Remember Mom, always strong and courageous.”

Yesterday Anna reached her tenth birthday with no significant hearing loss yet. She jumped in bed with me early in the morning and reminded me, “...only strong and courageous, Mom.”

“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go" (Joshua 1:9).

Questions: What fears paralyze you today? Are you listening to God’s promises?


sonshine's picture

Wow...what an awesome child you are raising ..she is teaching you Raquel...humbling isn't it?
Thanks for being vulnerable to share your fears, we all should be so brave as Anna.

I will be 77 on 17 September. I was born profoundly deaf with a little hearing in both ears. Without my hearing aids I can hear myself speaking but my son says I am shouting.  The doctors did not know what caused it. I did not speak one word until I started school. On the first day the teacher sat me down in the front row. I connected what she was saying to what was written on the blackboard. I started talking and I was reading to my younger brother and sister. I have been an Ecclesia Christian since I was 8 years old. I am looking forward to the Feast of Trumpets of my LORD Yahshua when maybe the Harpazo will take place. Anna has nothing to fear with her mother being with her. Our LORD is our REST, we REST in HIM 7 days of the week. So we are not discouraged, depressed, anxious, fearful. "I will never leave you or forsake you."

Hi Raquel....Please do not focus on the fear of the POSSIBILITY of hearing loss! Please pray for your daughters healing and believe in FAITH that God will heal her or even HAS healed her and you don't even know it yet! Try to be grateful everyday for your daughters continued ability to hear and ALWAYS expect your daughters hearing to be there every single day you wake up and thank Him that it is every day for the rest of yours and Anna's lives. Yes, God gives wisdom and knowledge to doctors and nurses (I am an RN for over 31 years) but God is JEHOVAH RAPHA!! HE is our GREAT PHYSICIAN, and what HE promises trumps any earthly doctors prognosis! 
KEEP the FAITH Raquel! and teach this FAITH to Anna too! (Sounds like she's already gettin' it!  :)  <3
Sincerely, Teresa

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