Today my guest blogger is Eva Burkholder. She writes about the weight of unfinished tasks. Eva (MACE, Columbia International University) is a missionary kid, wife, mother of two sons and a daughter-in-law, former cross-cultural worker, and missionary member care provider. Eva and her husband of thirty-one years live in Richardson, Texas. She blogs regularly at www.evaburkholder.com. Look for Eva's devotional on the life of Mary, available later this year.
I like to cross things off my to-do list. I use tear-off notepads and make lists and lists of what needs to get done today and in the coming days. My lists include unwanted tasks as well as life-giving ones. Then I set to work to accomplish them and cross them off. Done. Finished. Wrapped up. Nice and neat. List tossed in the trash. While some of my friends enjoy the process, I find more delight in the completion. Only then can I rest.
Problem is, so much is incomplete right now. Rarely do I ever get to the end of the list. On most days, a few items get carried over to my new list when the old paper is full and needs to be thrown away. Because stuff is never totally done, I live limbo. Waiting for the email answer, for the conference to be over, for the casserole to bake, for the check out line, for….for…for…And so I don’t rest.